A Shape of a Girl - Sophie's Monologue

Patel 1 SP Ms. Martin 19, November, 2022 A shape of a girl- Sophie's Monologue I look in the mirror everyday and I hate what I see staring back. The reflection is so ugly and unwanted by the whole world. She is just a waste of space taking up room that could have been used for someone else, somebody who actually meant something to rest the rest of the world. When I look in the mirror I see a girl who wanted To fit in but she doesn't have the eyes to tell her own story all together. Eyes That used to be so bright and filled with love for everyone and everything in the world were now dull and most of its colors were together. Here I show Fear of the cruel world that she used to be loved so much and sadness that nobody else but herself can describe. Her eyes are red and puffy from crying the majority of the nights before and the many nights before that her songs were muffled into a pillow while She listened to her father above drink Anyways his problems. Her sob ranked her body until she was too exhausted to stay up any longer to cry and she would have fallen in Love on unconscious State into a world of nightmares.The girl staring back at me is always tired but is too afraid to sleep which causes the bags under her eyes. When I look in the mirror I see a girl covered in bruises, cuts and scars from the battles that she has with herself and the world around her. Her Best friend is a razor blade that has become an addiction that you cannot get enough of. The scar that shattered her reminded her of Adrienne bullying her and no one stood up for her and . She knows that the scars will never go away and Brady never defends me. She is just always watching..standing.. Doing nothing . That's just how it works. She gets better then something happens and she gets the craving of the blade Patel 2 that you cannot resist any longer . When I look in the mirror I don't see a beautiful girl staring back at me. I don't see myself all Any longer. I see a weak being. I see something that I'm terrified of. I'm terrified of her because I know what she is capable of doing. The girls are back at me, not me but all the. They have turned into the girl that I now look back at. When I look in the mirror I see two best friends, Adrianne and Bradie, they work together. Adrianna is the one who constantly hurts me physically and mentally. She tortures me for her gun. Then there is Bardie. She doesn't do anything… does not move,..doesn't say anything …. like a statue.They work together and that's what I see. I see a girl who is scared to go to school getting flashbacks of what they did to me. Flashbacks of a rusty yellow staggered down the road from the harsh frost and heavy dumping of snow Canada’s long winters had come with. Aridenne put her hand on the seat watching me as I tried to jump out the emergency exit before the teacher came to stop me while her friend was all laughing. Flashbacks of Adrienne shoving my face in the toilet seat. I felt her hands pressure me down to drink the water while I gasped for air. When I look into the mirror I see damn steering back. She controls all that depressing. I carry. She is the beginning of everyone else I see. When I look in the mirror I see a girl with sad eyes but manages to put a smile on. That is fake to herself but real to whoever else that sees it. When I look in the mirror I see Adrriene always Whispering thoughts about of debt into my ears. She reminds me that I'm not wanted and I'm better off dead. She Is the one who has made me try to end all of it. She gets stronger with every day that passes by and that I'm still alive. When I look into a mirrorI see someone who failed to remind me. What is wrong with me? Why does everything in my life go wrong? I have no friends and no mom, and practically no dad, and no one that cares about me at all. The sad truth is, I hate myself more than I hate Adrienne. I wish I was normal. I wish people like me. I wish someone could just tell me what’s wrong with me. Patel 3 Hyperbole Anaphore Aposiopesis Simile Anamnesis Patel 4 SP Ms. Martin ENG2D1-01 19, November, 2022 A shape of a girl- Sophie's Monologue The most prominent rhetorical device utilized within Sofie’s monologue is an anaphora, as it showcases Sofie’s personality along with her angry and upset mindset with Adrienne. The anaphora is able to represent Sofie’s mindset through its recurrence of words at the beginning of consecutive sentences. During the monologue, Sofie feels as if no one understands her . The mere sight of Adrienne is enough to bring up past traumatic memories and irritate Sofie so much that she describes Adrienne as “The girl who brought up all my insecurities. The girl who bullied me into depression. The girl who made me hate myself. The girl who ruined my life” (Vo 1). Sofie's repetition of the words ‘I’ emphasizes the resentment of what she feels when she looks in the mirror. It also reiterates the upsetting effects that Adrienne’s actions have on Sofie’s mental-wellbeing and self-esteem, to the point where she gets flashbacks of moments where Adreeinee tortures her. Furthermore, the anaphora reveals Sofie’s resilient personality and her ability to be faced with challenging obstacles. It is evident that Sofie’s life has been difficult because of Adrienne’s malicious behavior; she's able to show that throughout the monologue. Overall, by making use of an anaphora, individuals can better identify Sofie’s angry and upset mindset, as well as her tough personality.